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Nutrition has been my focus this week. My last depressive episode was quite frightening and I'm desperate to find a way to minimise them. Medication helps of course, and thank god for them! But 1 missed pill and it's down the slippery slope…
My diet talk with E seems to have had an effect. There have been very few problems with getting her to eat well this week. I've also been strict with myself and have found it easier than I anticipated. The incentive of a happy mind works wonders!
The result? E has had an excellent week, with her moods proving very stable. Only when she was very fatigued did she lose the plot. Fatigue… another enemy to us both.
As for me, I've felt energetic, alert and happy! It actually feels a little strange to feel good, obviously I'm used to being lethargic and somber. A sad realisation, indeed.
Of course, every happy tale has a plot twist. I decided to push my newfound nutritional boundaries and have a "junk day". Movie night with the kids seemed the perfect excuse to settle in with some potato chips and a couple of cola's…
An hour ago I startled awake at 3am, feeling like I'd been having a nightmare on repeat all night. Also a dry mouth, splitting headache and aching joints, my feet swollen with fluid. Whoa. Such a sudden and violent change!
I'm still quite frightened by the nightmare, though I've had an hour to recover. Was it a warning from my subconscious to take more care?
Lesson learned: It's up to me to take care of me.
I'm off to refill my water bottle, my poor aching head.
It's so true about the food & food-like things we put in our bodies isnt it?? The sooner people understand that the solution to their health is what's in the fridge & not in the bottom of a bag of chips - the better you will be. The sad thing is, I eat some chips & the i flammation takes days to settle (totally not worth the 10 seconds of hooveri g them down
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