REVELATIONS

Sunday November 3rd, 2013.

So, I'm really bad at this journal thing, I forget almost every day. I suppose I've had other things on my mind..

Since my last entry, I've told most of my family about my diagnosis. None of them were surprised, especially my Dad. The discussion opened up a whole new line of communication for us, as we are exactly alike. He shares all my struggles, and issues. And struggle we do.

My Mum was surprisingly supportive. We have clashed so much over the years, her being so extroverted while I'm of course the opposite. I think it was a relief to us both to just understand what I've been facing and why we're so different. Already, she's shown more understanding towards how I feel and what I can cope with. No more constant phone calls after I explained that the ringing phone makes me anxious. She lets me call her when I'm up to talking. And no more unexpected visits, a text first is helpful!
I feel like this relationship will be the one most improved by my revelation. 

I told the girls last. We sat them down and prepared myself for questions. Their response?
L: "That's so cool! Just like E!"
E: a small smile, then turned back to watching TV.
Typical kids!
J smiled at me and shrugged. 

Does life goes on just as before? Almost. I took my Doc's advice and am putting less pressure on myself to be "normal", by taking social situations at my own pace and being kind to myself. That alone is such a relief! To allow myself to just be Me.

So life is not the same as before, like I thought it would be.
It's a whole new world.